what u wish for

just reread some of my early posts (which mostly are rubbish and absolutely useless), but this one hit me. almost all of those things have happened

- i haven’ t quit my school but i have only one semester left and then gotta write my bachelors paper

- i had my hair in several brown shades

-  i’ve been working on a cruise ship for a year now (whole damn year)

- and almost living abroad- half of the month i spend in a sea and go out to stockholm every other day. and i no longer live with my parents, which is almost like living abroad

- the only thing is that i haven’t gotten rid of my camera. which is great, cause if i did i would kick my old-me butt for that

to sum this up, i once again reminded myself that on all occasions i gotta be sure what i’m wishing for.

sea

today after work i went outside on the deck. this is surreal. i’ m sitting there with my peppermint tea, book and a wish that i smoked, but as i don’t i’ve chosen least of the worst and drank my tea (i don’t drink tea or other hot beverages in general), and just enjoyed the moment. i’m not sentimental and i’m not going to copy bad novels with the description of sunset, but DAMN IT!, i’m in the middle of baltic sea, sipping warmish (not hot) tea and looking at what’s left of sunset and all it’s orange and really dark blue (u think it’s black, but it’s not) in it’s contrast is so juicy (yes, that’s the exact adjective) it hurts my eyes.

who gets to live like this? and guess what? i do like my job.

edit: i should’ve posted this yesterday, but this will do as well